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If you're a large woman in America, your whole life is an opportunity to feel self-conscious, embarrassed, resentful and way too big. You can hide in the corner or on the couch, you can go to therapy, or you can put on your lycra bike shorts and get out there and move.
—Jayne Williams, Slow Fat Triathlete

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January 27, 2005

more on stress permalink

It's scary to me how quickly and easily I get stressed. Basically, one afternoon of panic, and I sleep badly, wake with my jaws aching and just feeling exhausted. This is not okay. I have two weeks of this. I need to find a better way.

So I'm trying to find the positives. One, I'll be learning more about scripting and SQL and backend work in general. I will be able to help people in solving their problems (I have to state that in the positive, I have to believe that I can find the answers). Hopefully this will enhance my old reputation of being helpful, friendly and fast. This has really made clear to me that I believe food and alcohol have magic powers, and I need to get past that on an emotional level.

I don't really know how to get past that stress-adrenaline, but in the meantime, I'm gonna try to take good care of myself. First on the list is breathing. It sounds new age, but I forget to breathe. Embarrassingly enough, even when exercising. I've got my 32oz bottle of water on my desk, and some nuts in a drawer if I get caught unable to leave my desk again. I've chatted with my boss and we've agreed that I may just have to disappear to the gym every now and again. I'm gonna try to get up from my desk every morning and afternoon and say hi to my coworkers.

Posted at January 27, 2005

Comments

It may not be terribly useful but, well, I like to think of myself as forgetting more about SQL than most people remember. Modest, aren't I? Anyway, if you find yourself getting stuck on anything, shoot me an email - I'll be happy to at least try to help. Or not, of course - just wanted to offer up myself as a resource. Oh, and saying hi to people? Always good, even if you don't count the exercise portion of things!

Posted by: Richard at January 27, 2005 11:03 AM

vj, great blog. I love the title!

I, too, have the subconscious belief that food and alcohol have special powers. I'm making baby steps, but still have a long way to go.

Posted by: Tricia at January 28, 2005 12:12 PM