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April 1, 2005
low 
I considered calling in sick and doing my fifteen miles today. I should have. What was I thinking?
Sweetie got me up late, and I was not able to compensate. I was just plain late. I am just plain down. And then, I missed the email that said that my allegro instructor had been called away on a family emergency. So I spent about a half hour at the gym, not really wanting to get started on anything because I needed to watch for the instructor.
Everyone has their cross to bear, as the saying goes—a pain that seems more than we can bear. And each of us must figure out how to bear it, how to keep it from consuming us. I am at that point again, and I don't know how to make peace with it. It is consuming me—all I want to do is sleep, I have no energy, I'm weepy, and, it seems, I have reduced ability to be able to handle social situations. Exercise would help, I'm certain of it, but it would require having the energy to do it.
I would have done the allegro, but only because I had an appointment.
Posted at April 1, 2005
Comments
Whew! Sounds like a tough time. Be good to yourself, but don't think too much about exercising - just do it, as they say. It will help your mind and body both! :)
Posted by: Nancy Toby at April 1, 2005 7:02 PM
oh, VJ, I know that place. that you are writing about it is a good thing. if you need someone to listen I am here.
Posted by: Chrissie at April 1, 2005 7:59 PM
Well it sucks being down because its a deep spiral to climb out of. Just gotta keep plugging away until you are out. Hope things lift for you soon, VJ.
Posted by: Jon in Michigan at April 3, 2005 8:56 AM