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April 18, 2005
no whining! 
I will call this entry no whining! because I'm hoping I can manage that! I am feeling better this morning. I can't control what I can't control. And me, I'm doing the best I can. Every mistake is a chance to learn. I've got a lot of learning to do!
In my continuing effort to make an effort, I bought some new makeup yesterday, which I put on this morning. Waterproof mascara is one item, given that I learned that my old mascara runs in both rain and tears. We'll see how this stuff works out, but I was kinda excited to put it on this morning, like I was playing dressup.
Does anyone else feel like they're playing at being an adult?
I would have liked to have done a lot of yardwork yesterday, but the weather really wasn't cooperating. But I did go out in the rain and prune the rosebush back by the garden gate. This thing grows incredibly fast (and completely covers the gate to the backyard), so it's a struggle keeping up with it (note to self: read the label about how big the bush grows, and then use that information in planting).
I've had some awful housefever lately. My dad built houses when I was a kid, so we were always moving, and for most of my adult life, I found I really wanted to move when I was having big issues with something. I've been totally in minor house-hunting mode for the last couple weeks, not even really realizing that it might be a portent of something else going on.
I've also felt like the window of opportunity to buy a different house has passed. Portland's real estate market continues to skyrocket. My house is now worth 4 times what I paid for it. However, I don't feel like I would earn enough from my house to be able to buy a house anywhere else in Portland.
Case in point, there's a cottage that I always pass and think is very cute. It's pratically at the corner of a major arterial and another big street. Its property taxes are more than I pay for my mortgage! They want 650 thousand for it. Oh... my... g-d!
Anyways, it's all becoming clearer. I need a change and I feel stuck. Now what?
But, let me end this all on a positive note. I've noticed that on the Kymco mailing list, that folks talk about the Dink, which I'm guessing is the Taiwanese name for the Bet & Win 250. Well, when the Columbia Scooter guys were going through all the stuff with me, in the seat compartment was a manual... for the 250 Grand Dink! I am the owner of a Grand Dink! Finally a name as dorky as the scooter itself! I hope it dries off a little bit so I can ride it...
Posted at April 18, 2005
Comments
LOL! A Grand Dink owner! You can hear the drivers of "other" scooters complaining "Those damn Grand Dink drivers! They thing they're all of that!" :D
Posted by: Jon in Michigan at April 19, 2005 6:25 AM
Oh my goodness, VJ, my friend always makes fun of me because she says I'm such a little kid. Anytime I have to do anything "adult" like, I just totally shut down - marriage, kids, buying a home, paying bills, being responsible - it all exhausts me! And it's not a charming, Peter Pan kind of quality, either, it's totally neurotic. So, uh, yeah, I'm always playing dress up! - Mia
Posted by: mia at April 19, 2005 6:59 AM
I used to move a lot and understand the feeling. Maybe you can get a new haircut or highlights or something? It gives that change of life feeling while also falling into the "making an effort" category. Sounds silly, but sometimes it helps.
Posted by: Tricia at April 19, 2005 9:17 AM
Oops; I just read your entry about getting your hair done. I can't do uncomfortable shoes or real makeup, either. Every now and then I'll feel like I should make more of an effort, and then I recall what I think makes a woman attractive, which is comfort in her skin, not pointy heels or eye shadow, so I feel better about my style (or lack thereof).
Posted by: Tricia at April 19, 2005 9:23 AM