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May 12, 2005
surprise! 
I rode the route from home to PFit this morning: 3 miles, short a block, according to the scooter odometer. Gosh, it's so much fun riding the scooter.
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So I had a really disturbing dream last night. I dreamt I was pregnant. We were about to throw a big house party when I realized that my water was about to break, which, huh? I guess I'm pregnant! How could I have gone 9 months and not noticed?
(Mind you, I know that there are women who have not noticed they were pregnant until they gave birth, but still! And I have no idea how you'd know that your water was about to break—maybe you just know when it happens?)
So, I'm thinking about it. Yeah, I guess about 7 months ago, I went through this weird nauseous period. Man, I guess it was a bad idea to have been partying so hard the last couple months (dreams, gotta love em. I can't remember the last time I partied hard—I am so middle-aged!).
Everyone, however, is very supportive. Sweetie, supportive. Dad (making a cameo—hi, Dad!), supportive. Mom, supportive. All of our friends, supportive.
That's when I woke up. Dang.
At first, I was like, what is that about? And then I remembered. I've mentioned to several co-workers that I'm covering for another coworker who is out on maternity leave—and invariably, the response is, 'Oh, I had no idea she was pregnant'. Sometimes, the person will go on to mention another fat woman in the office who recently had a child, and how they didn't know that she was pregnant either.
And these women, of course, are my size. I mean, in general. And they are both attractive, stylish women, as well as fat.
Mind you, maybe because I was paying attention, I could tell they were pregnant. They didn't look like they had big bellies, and wide hips—it looked like they were carrying their own Egg around in its' specially designed carrying case. And yes, they also had bellies and hips.
I'm not sure what to think of it, but it's just (obviously) on my mind.
Posted at May 12, 2005
Comments
funny. I bet that dream woke you up quickly. I think some women say that just to be mean, "I didn't now she was pregnant".
Posted by: Deene at May 12, 2005 11:07 AM
Come on, you're beautiful and you know it, stop having those weird dreams. My experience has been to learn to accept and love yourself first, then you can settle down and work on less of you to love. I tell my wife this often as she is fighting the same battle.
Posted by: Jack at May 12, 2005 11:59 PM