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September 13, 2005
Random thoughts 
This would probably be more exciting or illicit if they were trying to be at all clandestine about it. Or exhibitionist. But there it was, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
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I made the transition from athletic chunky girl to fat woman in my mid-twenties. I was in Germany, not having a particularly good time. When I got back, my cab-driving coworkers kidded me about liking the food there. I didn't really get it, as I really hadn't liked the food there. And then one day, I realized, I'm fat. I don't know, maybe I stood on a scale or got a good look at myself in the mirror, but the realization was like a lightning bolt. I had been reasonably happy with my clumsy body, and then suddenly, it was a shanda.
Low and behold, I had gained 100#. And been largely unaware of it. How on earth?, you might be asking. Believe me, I still ask myself that. I don't know. There was a lot of unpleasantness that had gone on, and I had been otherwise occupied.
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I am going through a period right now of being obsessed with haircuts. Right now, my hair is shoulder-length, with bangs, but I've become very fixated with cutting it very short. Cheesepuppet went through this a couple of months back.
As usual, it starts so innocently. I've been thinking: does my hair make me look like I'm trying to look young? And the favorite, does my hair look stoopid long? There's also the long hair on a middle-aged woman suggests (in some cases) working-class. One of my coworkers, in her 50s, has grown her hair out—and she looks awful.
Then I see a woman in a cafe with short hair, and it's all I can do to keep myself from walking over and talking to her. It's a very German cut, and no, I can't get more specific than that.
Of course, if I had been smart, I would have talked to her, and I would have taken pictures. But I didn't. And so today on lunch I marched over to the B0rders Public Library to check out hair magazines.
What I learned is: long hair is in. Short hair is not. I'm hopefully going to go to the tobacconist tonight and see what they have in honest-to-g-d German magazines. And then I'll go talk to my hillbilly-punkrawk hairdresser and see what she thinks of this craziness.
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Oh. And I'm obsessed with two songs. Let me share.
- Nina Gordon: Straight Outta Compton
- A remix of Kanye West's Goldiggers (George Bush Don't Like Black People)
Posted at September 13, 2005
Comments
whoa. is all I can say about the picture of that house..whoa
Posted by: brit at September 13, 2005 7:47 PM
I had long hair all my life (really long) and got it cut short about 18 months ago. (Pics are on my site). I love it! Yes, it can be more hassle in the more, but it makes me feel more put together to have a style, as opposed to a pony tail.
Posted by: neca at September 14, 2005 5:36 AM
It doesn't matter what's "in" style or "out" of style. What you need to do is find the best haircut for you. Find the most flattering and easiest style and enjoy it for the rest of your life.
Don't let the fashion industry tell you what to do with your body. Find a classic style that you love and stick with it, no matter what "they" tell you is cool.
Posted by: Laura Moncur at September 14, 2005 12:20 PM
I think neca is right. You have to figure out what's right for you and just let it be that. But we should still get together for coffee and mull it over. :)
Posted by: Cheesepuppet at September 15, 2005 12:13 AM
The waitress at the Castagna Cafe, when we were there with you, had the best short haircut I'd seen in a long time -- a wavy, glossy pixie style. If you have some wave to your hair, maybe you could do that! (Mine is too straight!)
Posted by: Fran at September 15, 2005 9:12 PM