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October 26, 2005

Futility permalink

Daphne on the back deck
I'm just having a down morning this morning. Futility. Everything seems futile. Why clean when it will become unclean? Why agitate for social justice when evil corporate interests will ride ruffshod over everything? Why do I even hope for a job that will be satisfying?

All I really want to do is to knit and play with maps. I tried reading a book this morning—that sort of thing used to be way high on my list of fun things to do—but the words swam on the page. So many words.

Perhaps in a related note, I am obsessed with the Yeah Yeah Yeahs' Maps (though I've never heard the Yeah Yeah Yeahs—the version I have is by Arcade Fire)
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Yesterday was pretty good, all things considered. I did the Salmon Street Death March, the three mile walk up and back down the Salmon Street hill, with the usual suspects. It felt good, though I appear to have deeply offended a cow-orker that I don't know very well. I'm not sure if I should get upset about that, but given that I'm on the fence about it, I think I should just give up the catholic guilt and not worry about it.

Of course, fifteen minutes before I could leave work, it began pouring. I thought about leaving Sweetie's bike in the garage—but it's not my bike, and what if it walked off? I thought about taking the train part of the way home, but I'd still end up soaked. A cow-orker offered to ferry me and the Black Hole home, but I was pretty certain that I'd end up soaked, and that the bike wouldn't fit into her car.

During the day, I had read Liz's recent entry about the not-so-recent beginning of her regular exercise, which involved following through on a promised walk, even in the pouring rain. And I thought, I could act like I'm made of soap and avoid the rain, or I could just ride home.

I chose the latter. I had my yellowjacket as my only raingear, which is water-resistant, so within about the first five minutes, I became soaked to the skin. Honestly, it's easier once you're soaked, because it just can't get any worse. Since I was riding the Black Hole, the ride home was pretty easy once I got past my ever complaining internal voice.

But I was soaked through. Sweetie met me at the door with a towel straight from the dryer. I began piling wet clothes on the floor, and was surprised to see water running away from the pile. Yikes. And my favorite red mary-janes - soaked through. Hopefully they'll survive this.

On my list of things to do today: buy rain gear. Seriously.

Posted at October 26, 2005

Comments

You are more intrepid woman that I!

Posted by: neca at October 26, 2005 12:32 PM

Wow, *I* inspired *you*? Crazy. Riding in the rain is actually one of my fav things to do. I think of it as an urban cleansing ritual. Though I don't know if I would feel that way if I was wearing mary-janes!

Posted by: Liz at October 26, 2005 5:46 PM

Wow, *I* inspired *you*? I think of *you* as *mine*, for the record. Riding in the rain is actually one of my fav things to do. I think of it as an urban cleansing ritual. Though I don't know if I would feel that way if I was wearing mary-janes!

Posted by: Liz at October 26, 2005 5:46 PM

dude. rain gear. A good plan.

Posted by: brit at October 26, 2005 10:49 PM

But don't you feel so righteous when you finish a workout in the rain? Yeah, I feel much better. Wet, but better!

Posted by: susan at October 27, 2005 4:31 AM