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January 6, 2006
doing it vs doing it right 
Well, I am so ready for this week to be over. My insane deadline project got done, and got kudos. Essentially, my deadline kept creeping towards me (close of business, 3pm, 1:30pm, 12:30pm, 11am), and I was triaging, grabbing data, not checking it, and chucking it together. While I'm pleased that I was able to get it together, it just sucks to have had to do it so haphazardly and with so much pressure.
So after 11am, and I turned the damn thing in, I tried to decompress a bit and figure out what the next project was, but I was shaky and my heart was racing. I felt okay when I was eating lunch at the Red Coach (20 minutes, start to finish, and I was eating slow), but then I went out for a stroll and was still feeling like the world was pressing down on me. I figured walking would cure it, walking, it seems, cures about everything for me except rain, but no.
I walked for about a half hour. I wish I had had more time!
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This morning's discussion with career guy included some talk about tough love. It seems that it is time for me to get my act together and get it on the road. Ack. While parts of me have been responding to the whole nurture and grow environment, it appears that that is not enough to make me actually revise my resume.
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I have big plans for the weekend. I have the Y2K6 on Sunday, a 10K race in Forest Grove. We are supposed to have showers then, oh boy. I just need to get the walk in, then I get pancakes. Really, they serve pancakes after the race. That isn't always the best part, but it is a damn fine incentive.
I am hoping to get a couple good chunks of time to clean and declutter. I have to admit, I am much more interested in the decluttering, but the cleaning needs to happen as well. I am lovingly thinking about filling my car with stuff to go to charity. Here's hoping!!
I heard something I really liked yesterday, about getting rid of the old so that the new can come into your life. I like that idea.
Posted at January 6, 2006