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January 7, 2006
Wuhoo! Movement! 
I feel like I am on this wave of momentum. It's incredibly pleasurable!
Yesterday, I applied for a job. I know, it sounds kinda dumb, but really, it's huge. I haven't been able to apply for anything, mostly because I've felt like my current work is so ugh, and any new work would be more of the same, except with less days off and less retirement contribution. But in working with career dude, I've kinda resuscitated this job and made it much more enjoyable, as well as getting me in touch with my incredible anger. I've been shooting off my mouth, and no one seems to hate me or want to bring me down a notch. I feel like I've been becoming more me.
I mean, I think this has been a theme for the last few months. I am becoming more me. I am holding back less, and in some ways, the noose of pleasing others has been loosened. I feel like I felt about a year after breaking up with my ex, rediscovering what I loved doing, except I'm still in a relationship, and still pretty pleased about it.
By 9 am this morning (a Saturday), I had showered, started laundry, changed some lightbulbs, cleaned off a couple lamp shades, and vacuumed the ceiling. I was loving it! I suddenly think I was able to feel the sort of satisfaction that my mom feels with cleaning—except, she, of course, would not allow a ceiling to wait eleven and a half years before vacuuming it.
Posted at January 7, 2006
Comments
Ha, I can almost see you dancing around the house cleaning:) Good for you,VJ. Eleven years? Sounds like me.
Posted by: susan at January 7, 2006 12:34 PM
You had done all that housework by 9am? Wow, good for you. I'm lucky to get up before noon on a Saturday.
Posted by: Regina at January 7, 2006 3:45 PM
Pardon me, but are ceilings supposed to be vaccummed? Good god, I never needed to know that.
Posted by: Megan at January 16, 2006 3:43 PM