March 10, 2006
kitten alert 
So, with each step, I feel my core. And it's not very happy.
I've heard the class chat about how your core is your powerhouse, how it enables everything. And every now and again, I have the opportunity to remember this. Like now.
But in spite of this, or because, I didn't go to pilates last night. I suck.
Other than shirking essential responsibilities, I'm doing pretty good. Feeling focused, setting small goals, following through. This probably isn't big deals to most of you, but after the last little cycle of depressive periods, it's pretty darn exciting for me.
As usual, I can't do anything halfway. I'm concerned with search engine findability at my place of work (MPOW), and so I am concerned about it with the guide as well. I really have a lot of work to do on the guide... I've been learning the hard way about categories, and being overenthusiastic about them. 'Nuff said there.
It's been snowing here but not sticking. Big fluffy beautiful snowflakes. I wanted to get a picture of the backyard this morning, what with the snow flying and the daffodils blooming and the fence falling in, and the world's cutest kitten sitting on the one stable part of the fence. But then Echo started barking at the world's cutest kitten, and I became distracted.
The world's cutest kitten belongs to my neighbor Theresa I'm told, though I haven't seen Theresa outside of when one of us in driving or riding by in months. But, it's a sylvester, with black face all over except for a little ascot and socks. It's tiny, and totally outgoing, and so damn cute that a person could just kotz. I worry though—such a little kitten, ranging around our busy street, and our even busier cross street, by herself.
Posted at March 10, 2006
Comments
I know you know this in your head but I am drawn to remind you of all the progress and accomplishments you have made in all aspects of your life. maybe the answer isn't doing better or taking on more but lies in continued development of feeling compassion towards yourself. you are a beautiful, accomplished and intelligent woman. let yourself feel that.
Posted by: Chrissie at March 10, 2006 2:32 PM